This life…This life is nothing that I ever imagined it would be. This life is becoming everything that my heart of hearts hopes it will be. But it’s a scary transition, this letting go of me and clinging to Him thing. This part of me that is too afraid to let go in fear that I won’t have proper footing, in fear that I’ll fail Him and fall.
Where am I called to be brave?
- In the moments when I am in conversation and bring Him up because, well, I feel led to, even when it may be uncomfortable.
- In the letting go of things I’ve let control my life because I felt deep obligation to them or to someone, when I’ve really lost sight of the most important obligation: my family.
- I’m called to be brave enough to trust that things will be just fine, that He makes all things work together for my good.
- I’m asked to spend a little more time in deep conversations, in mending and healing brokeness.
- To grow deeper in relationship with my Father.
- I’m being asked to be brave and share my story and journey when I am afraid of what people will think of my imperfect mess.
- To explore my spiritual gifts and learn how to function in them.
A few of you have commented to me that this blog has helped you to know you are not alone on this spiritual journey awakening. I know that I sometimes envy relationships that some of my friends have with God. I want to fall into Him so easily as if there were no effort in it at all. The good news is, the more I try, the more it will happen.
Last weekend, my pastor gave an amazing sermon. One that spoke directly to my heart and woke my soul up a little bit. To summarize, God Chose ME. Me. Before the world ever began, He picked me out. How thankful my heart is that He chose me. And I have news for you…He chose you, too.
Where am I called to be brave? To believe that I am holy and blameless, to accept that everything I need I already have, I just have to accept that it’s there and give me to Him. To be brave enough to choose Him…
Holy Spirit, I pray, today and everyday, that You would help me to harness and nurture the gifts that You’ve already given to me: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, gentleness and self-control. Father, help me to recognize when I’m not being brave, when I don’t have the courage and reach down Your hand to give me a gentle nudge. Help my heart to trust in Your goodness. Amen.
Where are you called to have courage today?
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zycam
spice scented candles
education
sweet pre-school teachers
art made by 9, 6 & 4 year olds
old furniture to refinish
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