sab • bat • i • cal
Deep breath in…
I had originally planned to announce this with the launch of my exciting new offering. But because that is tied up right now with some legalities and is taking a bit longer than anticipated, I felt I should probably take a few moments to let you all know…
This year is closing out and it’s been a wonderful and growing year for me. I have grown more spiritually than ever before and things that never seemed to hold importance have been laid on my heart, creating within me a longing desire to do more with what I have been given. Don’t get me wrong, I am so happy with what I have done and all of the people who I have met, the lives I’ve been blessed to touch and the people who have touched me. I am so thankful for the last four years. I have grown in my gift and many of you have stuck by my side becoming not only amazing clients, but amazing friends. Your families hold a special place in my heart and always will. I cherish the memories I have captured for you as they are such a huge part of my story.
I have always thought that photographing memories is important. I have been blessed to have been given so many opportunities from the very beginning to capture your memories. But it wasn’t until this year that I realized that what I have is a gift. In realizing that, I’ve thought constantly about whether or not I am using this gift to the best of my potential. As I take this rest, I’m opening up my heart to see where God leads me, where He wants me to go and how I am to be used to bring glory for His Kingdom. I was asked today what I was going to do during this sabbatical. My response was that I am just going to wait and see. But taking this time in 2011 will give me the freedom to do so many things: to learn, to hone my craft, to be inspired and refreshed, to discover and to be awakened.
My need for rest seems to come every year, both in Spring and after the holiday rush. But this year has been different. My need for rest has been present all year long. Present in not only my business, but in my home life, spiritual life and everything in between. I long for days that I can just sit and embrace what may come, for days when I can devote one hundred percent of me to my husband or children or home or church. My baby is turning 5 next summer and then she’ll be off to school. I have been working since she was 8 months and I have been so blessed that I’ve worked non-stop ever since. But, my heart breaks for all the times she wants me to play and make believe and go out just to go. I’ll have plenty of time to work once she’s in school and these last days are all I’ll have before we’re stuck to a schedule.
So what does this mean for my business? I am not sure how long this break will last. It really is up to God and where I am led. I do know that photography and creating runs in my blood and I can’t imagine going a period longer than a month without creating. So, that being said, I am still going to take an occasional session. My sessions will be extremely limited and I am going to be very selective in the types of families that I photograph. As I said in a previous post, I long to create and document your true selves, not the ones who dress up and stare at the camera for the annual portrait (let me just clarify that I don’t see anything wrong with that! My heart is just being led to capture more authenticity than what can be captured at a typical family portrait session). Additionally, once legalities are figured out, I will be launching something entirely different and new and will be focusing on this new endeavor.
Whew! It’s been so difficult to try and get this out. My business has been such a huge part of me for so long. I remember a conversation I had with a good friend over the summer. He told me one of the most amazing things I’ll ever remember. He said, “Christie, it’s not our responsibility to maintain that status”. This has been what I have done for so long, tried to maintain. The truth of the matter is this: I only have what God has given me. He is the one who will do with it what it is meant to do. It’s going to be a lot easier giving it over to Him than trying to hold it all together by myself.
I just want to say one last thing. I love you. I love your babies and I love your children. I love the smiles you’ve offered me and I love the relationship you’ve shown me. You are amazing people whose lives I am so so so honored to have been a part of. Thank you, thank you, thank you.